Circular Abound April 23, 2008

[circle in text - an attempt to draw a perfect circle, sir. you piece of shit]
 
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The fun keeps me 
half warm,
my hip heats
holding whatever 
she needs.
 
God’s master pan
is on, beyond
 
Claps hold me to
the chest,
pills are water
(and) trying 
to figure
the existence, see
of God
 
God, God, God,
me have nothing 
for my personal
friend’s sacrifice.
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CELLAR DOOR
AMBIGUOUS LOVE
SERENDIPITY
(rock) QUAURY
 
I should be checked
for anything beyond 
the fish [...]

Get Ready to Run. April 20, 2008

Yeah we all flirt with the tiniest notion of self conclusion in one simplified motion, you see the truth is that you’re never supposed to act on it, no matter how unbearable this misery gets.
she whispered “you make it sound so easy to be alive, but tell me how am I supposed to seize this [...]

I choose to April 15, 2008

ignore the smoke and forget
smiles are far less needed, and just a
replacement for what should be felt.
 
in depth of flowing currents, my hands divide the
salty water. i shall drink below the ocean.
forget oxygen. and release myself back into
Her divine presence of ecstacy. sanctions unheard of.
flowing paths of feathered grass invite. require my
soft fleeting feet. bottoms [...]

Ther’es a man outside April 14, 2008

, the world’s trembling
 
 
There’s a girl outside, and she’s screaming
the whole wide world is one dare at a time.
 
 
 
My back is continuing to hurt me. Upon every move around. I believe the gym may have fuct it up. I took a 1/4 of a bar in hopes to forget about it. I ate a whole [...]

I was just at the pool April 9, 2008

and listening to Lisa Gerrity’s album so I could lay out and allow myself to fall into a trance state for meditative thought. I was successful.
 
As the voice came in and out of hearing, I raised my inner self to see the good, natural, lightly colored spirits blowing past me. Mother Earth layed her hands [...]

Real Dreams Come to Me April 9, 2008

I had a dream last night…
set inside something like a racetrack… or the ambiguous space found in the last levels of Halo (or Halo 2, I don’t really know). Oh, in the Library level. Except instead of extremely dark, it was grey. I was throwing a party in a huge mansion that wasn’t necessarily mine. [...]

I am a fidget April 8, 2008

arms dangling, legs blasting back and forth. Sitting down all day makes me impulsive. Greedy for immediate rushes. I need stable thoughts. I need, I need, I need. Instead, I want to calm my nerves and let myself fully develop true thoughts without influence of those in NEED, need, need.
I was asked, yesterday, to help [...]

Talent, Terror, and Tricks April 7, 2008

I am attempting to become uniform in my movement. Goals are slowly being set in place for my mental infrastructure. I need something to build off of. I need something to push me over the edge and into something beautiful, highly rewarding, the ultimate release of endorphins. I need to feel perfectly balanced and well-managed. [...]

I wanted a child April 4, 2008

that neednt suckle from a tainted teat. the mother unsure of what she wanted and now sure she doesn’t want it. It comes to me that I think she doesn’t know what it is she ever really wanted. And I’m sure of it when I see this pregnant belly in my dreams. She was wearing [...]

I’ve no hands to feed with. April 3, 2008

We’ve become a broken kingdom of silent prayers unheard
and washing the blood from the missing apendage. shattered,
throats and aortas. veins explode. from violent episodes caught
in glimpses, naive stares in childish pupils. destroy and create,
a procreation without recreation. learn to survive in mild walks
of mile wide tiles. a play on words records in youthful head(count).
malee. attack. [...]